life honestly fucking sucks right now.. i’m living in orleans. i never ever thought i’d say i miss barrhaven but wow do i ever.. god knows the next time i’ll see my friends.. god knows when my life will get better and stop this downward spiral to fucking hell.. everything that could possibly go wrong is.. my family is literally falling apart. me and my sister don’t get along at all anymore.. consistently fighting, we can’t even have a civil conversation with each other. my mom and my step dad are breaking up.. we have to move out and find a new house.. hence the reason me my mom and my sister are living at my uncles in orleans. me and liam are slowing drifting apart.. we used to be able to talk morning to night everyday.. never run out of things to say to each other and now we can barely keep a conversation going.. always bickering at each other. getting mad over nothing. literally acting like we’re dating when we’re not at all… and i don’t think thats fair at all.. for either of us. i just want to tell him its either we’re together or we’re not.. none of this in between shit.. we both deserve so much better. urgh i don’t usually rant cause thats just not who i am but i don’t know what to do anymore and i feel like no one understands no one has gone through anything similar to me and i don’t want people to have to worry about me and i don’t want to bore anyone with my stupid problems.. i feel stupid for writing this but i need to get stuff off my chest and i just don’t know what to do.. urgh :( i’ve never been this lost before. i hate this feeling. i hate this situation. i hate all of this so much. can i just fast forward to where life gets better and everything turns out okay ?
